Dysfunctional Planner

How have you adapted to the changes brought on by the Covid-19 pandemic?

It’s a few years on now and I feel like most things are back to normal. The UK suffered through Brexit and Covid coming out of lockdown wasn’t a joyous occasion as it should have been.

When I first started going out crowds it unnerved me. It still does. I don’t like large crowds I don’t like people sneezing and coughing next to me. I don’t think there have been a lot of changes, but I sometimes crave lock down. I don’t think I am the only one and I know people and the world suffered without the freedom of movement. But for me, I miss it.

I miss the quiet luxury of me and Gavin working as one, walking the dog on our lunch, coming up with limited plans for the weekend, weekly shop deliveries, gardening.

The difference was we were in it together.

I feel like I am romanticising it all.

I still remember the fear. I remember the death counts. I remember looking at my husband with questions. I remember them running out of graves in New York.

That was when we thought it would be a few months and not years.

I remember our inept government making excuses and not supporting the science nor the facts. I remember corrupt politicians getting away with breaking the rules.

Covid still makes me angry.

We lost people too. The vulnerable ones who, in a different environments may have been with us today.

I haven’t forgotten.

That is not what I crave.

For me the restriction wasn’t bad, it soothed my inner hermit. Made me love my little home even more. Made me appreciate my friends and family and for a while I craved the isolation.