Dysfunctional Planner

Completed my apprenticeship At working they were offering out apprenticeships, now some of them where incredible and I was very interested in the book binding and forestry but alas I had to do mine on housing. It was hard. Not the learning but the writing. My dyspraxia and dyslexia came in to play and made…

Do lazy days make you feel rested or unproductive? It doesn’t matter what your day is, you always have to achieve basic goals. A shower, food and a walk. there is no sickly thing as a Lazy day. Basic cleaning of areas you have used. Unproductive days where me and Gavin get up at 9…

Magic Moments I was tucked in bed, night light on, book in hand and my husband called me downstairs no explanation. I called to him, a few times and then I knew, it had something to do with the night sky. He does this when he wants me to see something he knows I will…

What’s the trait you value most about yourself? I try to be kind. I know as a child I could be selfish and lash out, forgetting that words have barbs. I thought that being funny meant being mean. I would describe myself as mean inks I am angry. I alway want to be a good…

What could you do more of? I wish I could focus more. I am definitely one of thousands of women in their forties that have ADHD. I have all the signs, getting distracted easily, hyper focus, room laziness. I honestly wish I could focus and complete more, by my life is full of “que Será”…

How often do you walk? Walking is good for the soul. It’s gentle exercise and great a stress reliever. This photo is from last nights big walk. The trees are turning gold and it smells like autumn.

Do you see yourself as a leader? Can I take charge of a situation yes, but I am happy to take a back seat now. I left two jobs I absolutely loved and thought were my futures and I wanted to climb so high but now no. No more climbing, well maybe a little bit.…

What are you doing this evening? Humble plans of a French onion soup Mac and cheese plans. Saw it on TikTok and making it tonight. A glass of red wine, finishing Kingdom of Ash, the book and tidying the kitchen. Not very exiting…. Oh yes it our legal wedding anniversary! 5 years today we tied…

Share a story about the furthest you’ve ever traveled from home. He was my first love and a good boyfriend until he wasn’t. He adored me and made me feel like the most important person in the world. We were friends for 6 months before I accepted there was something between us. He promised me…

What does your ideal home look like? We are creating our ideal home. The build may be at a standstill but the interiors are not. I have shared some on my mood boards before but I happy to share them again. A little retrospect for those who are new to my blog, we had a…

How are you feeling right now? Yesterday was a good day but Frank didn’t sleep as well as I thought he was. I should have taken him out for a quick walk before bed. I will do that tonight and see if it makes a difference. Our walk today was shorter and at 6:30 so…

What daily habit do you do that improves your quality of life? It’s going to be a hot one today, which means no walk for Frank, that is until he woke up at 6am and had the devil inside him. He, like lots of French bulldogs, has allergies. Sometimes he licks him raw and nothing…

A habit I need to break I am terrible. I let myself fall back on the social media trap again. It’s my fault- I am too addicted to it. I also subscribed to another book subscription. And now I am regretting it. So, I have decided that I will see what it’s like till Christmas…

It’s a root problem I said that when my grey hairs got to my ears then I would consider letting it all go natural. I am currently dying my roots every two-three weeks and it’s expensive and I cannot be bothered. I am worried it will age me but at the same time I love…

Making some changes and planning We have had some bad weeks. I mean tears and anger. Our builder is a douche. It’s not going to change. He won’t change. We will be lucky if we get the build finished. But there is a chance. So I am thinking positive thoughts and planning for the future.…

What time do you go to bed and wake up currently? I love to sleep, to dream to rest. I will be first to be and last to rise. My family is over so I am currently sleeping on my couch in a building site. We are close to having one room done…. But it’s…

What’s the most delicious thing you’ve ever eaten? Seychelles food is a mix, kreole food is the best. A mix of African Indian Asian and French cooking, these are the dishes I grew up on. Heavily fish based, every Friday my dad would cook us a feast! Fried rice, baked fish, maybe fried fish as…

What’s your favorite thing about your garden? I finally attempted to tidy the allotment. I just had a few hours and it still looks a complete rip but I tackled some jobs. I planted the runner beans out, knowing full well the canes aren’t tall enough. But they need to go out. My peas are…

How do you want to retire? I think it’s sad that we all retire when we are too old or too tired to enjoy ourselves. I would retire tomorrow if I could. Spend my days in my garden, cooking, snoozing, walking Frank, planning the next country to visit. I want my life to be full…

What notable things happened today? I want hens, specifically rescue hens. I want to give them a lovely life and space for them to end their days. Eggs are a bonus. The climate is crazy at the moment, I thought we were going to have a great summer but it’s June, drizzling and my garden…

What are you passionate about? These are my loves. I just got back from a long weekend in Las Vegas. I loved it. But it wasn’t for me. It’s was too far too go for so few hours my jet lag is bad and I have been awake since 2am. Vegas was a lot more…

What does “having it all” mean to you? Is it attainable? This is all I want in life Okay that sounds like having it all to me. I have never wanted to be super rich, it sounds boring. Everything on this list is attainable but it also means me putting in a lot of work.…

A productive day It’s just gone 13:00. My third wash is on for the day. We have had two pots of coffee a big fry up. Mowed the allotment and now I am chilling. The sun is brilliant. The stingy nettles are vicious and I can stop now. I till have a few more washes…

How do you balance work and home life? In the grand scheme of working, no one cares. Everyone is replaceable, so you do not owe work more than your hours they pay you for. I have a good boss who looks after me. Last years cancer meant I wasn’t my normal self and my boss…

What’s one small improvement you can make in your life? I am a messy person. My house is generally untidy. If I know you are coming round I will scrub and clean my house but normally it will always be messy. I want to change things. I want to be tidy. I want to be…

What is your plan? I spoke too soon. The builder did turn up but he forgot his keys so he couldn’t work. What hopefully he did do was liaise with the other builders to talk about the lane which is a bone of contention. Two houses all having building work both need access except our…

What gives you direction in life? I am not sure I have any direction at the moment. I may be a tiny bit bored sometimes but in general I am content. I guess I am a little lost. Working in retail I always craved to work up into the creative section but now I work…

When do you feel most productive? I am not not a morning person, but I am not a night owl either. I love the weekends because I can do things on my time. I am most productive ironically in the morning and when I have a deadline. This weekend I have woken at 7:30 both…

What are your favorite vegetables to grow? Radish are supposed to be the easiest veggie to grow. Which is harrowing when I have been trying and failing. Last year I ended up letting them all flower because they bolted and they get bitter. The conditions are great for salad at the moment. My lettuce is…

Describe a risk you took that you do not regret. Never regret love. You can regret how it ended. What you endured for far too long. The bad bits. But never regret falling in love. It’s magical. But new love and growing love is worth it. I let myself love again over heartbreak and it’s…

How do you unwind after a demanding day? Don’t get me wrong, sometimes I don’t have the energy to garden, plan or read. Sometimes I just want to open a bottle of red and put something familiar on tv. But getting out into the garden completely distresses me. Pulling up a few weeds. Sowing some…

What’s something most people don’t understand? Working in retail and now with local government I have spoken to hundreds of people in my life time. Complaints is a really tricky one and people offloading is often difficult to listen to, but everybody just wants to be heard. People complaining about personal issues product issues, it’s…

How often do you say “no” to things that would interfere with your goals? So when I make plans to garden and they are interrupted with friends events then I just make sure that I get up earlier to achieve what I want to. I like to say no a lot. Especially if it’s it’s…

Are you superstitious? I believe in karma, I believe in Mother Nature , in Physics and Science. I don’t believe in fate. I worked in a shop that sold mirrors and after breaking my third I realised that bad luck was a silly superstition that didn’t hold any power, not with me. By the time…