Does that make sense?
I am feeling a little lost, because I am now, like a large part of the UK unemployed. I don’t feel hopless, just a wee bit listless.
I was really sad to leave my job they were my work family but even though the timing is off it feels right to leave. I have been there almost 6 years and felt at home there. I have always worked, sometimes two jobs so not having something to do is making me feel adrift.
I don’t feel sad, I am not feeling blue like I was in January.
I could not for the life of me fall a sleep last night, I was wide awake. I didn’t want to disturb Gavin so I just lay there, staring at the ceiling, listening to his breathing wide a wake. I must have drifted off, because an hour later I was downstairs with Frank.
Again not sleeping, so I got up at 7am and put the bins out.
Then I waited for Gavin to get up, and woke him up 20 minutes early because I was bored.

I wrote a plan at the start of the week, I also had an idea of what I would be doing but this helped me focus. I have been ticking it off everyday. Tomorrow I am gutting the bathroom and scrubbing it clean. Then Friday I am transforming the bathroom with white paint, how original.
I am taking this time to learn and explore what I want to do and be, listening to seminars and instagram lives that will help be grow as a person. I have also been listening to Vix Meldrew on Youtube and on her Lunchtime chats which are helping me focus on what this blog should be about.
Perhaps if I work out and focus more on my blog then I will find a bit more purpose on what I want to do with myself.
This is a big step in my career, I have a lot of experience which can be transferred into lots of different rolls.
So what to do?
What do you want to be when you grow up?
Stop waking me up early !
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