Feeling a little lost but not hopeless

Does that make sense?

I am feeling a little lost, because I am now, like a large part of the UK unemployed. I don’t feel hopless, just a wee bit listless.

I was really sad to leave my job they were my work family but even though the timing is off it feels right to leave. I have been there almost 6 years and felt at home there. I have always worked, sometimes two jobs so not having something to do is making me feel adrift.

I don’t feel sad, I am not feeling blue like I was in January.

I could not for the life of me fall a sleep last night, I was wide awake. I didn’t want to disturb Gavin so I just lay there, staring at the ceiling, listening to his breathing wide a wake. I must have drifted off, because an hour later I was downstairs with Frank.

Again not sleeping, so I got up at 7am and put the bins out.

Then I waited for Gavin to get up, and woke him up 20 minutes early because I was bored.

I wrote a plan at the start of the week, I also had an idea of what I would be doing but this helped me focus. I have been ticking it off everyday. Tomorrow I am gutting the bathroom and scrubbing it clean. Then Friday I am transforming the bathroom with white paint, how original.

I am taking this time to learn and explore what I want to do and be, listening to seminars and instagram lives that will help be grow as a person. I have also been listening to Vix Meldrew on Youtube and on her Lunchtime chats which are helping me focus on what this blog should be about.

Perhaps if I work out and focus more on my blog then I will find a bit more purpose on what I want to do with myself.

This is a big step in my career, I have a lot of experience which can be transferred into lots of different rolls.

So what to do?

What do you want to be when you grow up?