Dysfunctional Planner

It’s not a secret I have been feeling a little low in myself. I think that not working makes me feel like I have no worth, no place in the world plus I want to shop and drink.

I need to sort myself out.

Job

Fitness

Health

Healthy mind

Tidy home

Happy garden

Self reflection is important, I like to be busy so that I don’t dwell on things. Maybe though I have just been ignoring my inner turmoil. Blocking out my feelings and not addressing my lows. My old boss got in touch to ask how I was getting on which was nice. Even though I don’t want to work in retail was so close to asking for my job back.

I didn’t.

Because I don’t want to work there.

It’s made me focus on my job search.

I need to do a bit of work on myself and that does not mean having a bubble bath ( although I really want one) or having a drink ( I need about 10 of those) also no sitting in-front of the TV disappearing into oblivion.

I have to start somewhere and tomorrow is a new day.

I feel a bit more focussed now, I feel a bit more secure knowing I will plan my next few days and work my way out of this low.