Dysfunctional Planner

I am lucky.

I have a perfect little home.

A husband who makes me laugh and smile everyday.

A dog who just wants to be beside me.

I may currently be unemployed but I am busy. Cleaning, tidying gardening and decluttering. I have stopped dreaming of holidays and seeing friends. Now I am starting to make plans.

I won’t be leaving the country this year but I hope to see my mum and dad next year. Two years is a very long time even for us. But I am super grateful for technology and the way I can ring them up whenever I want to. I get to tell them I love them and miss them, all the time. I am so lucky and privileged to be able to do this.

I asked my friend for a favour the other day and she helped me out so quickly. When I have enough money I am going to ask her to help redesign my website as I don’t really have a clue what I am doing with it. She has been amazing. I have very good friends who I love a lot.

I am watching my garden grow every day and seeing what flowers are coming up. I am planting tomatoes as they are easy and I cook with them a lot. Even my hanging baskets is giving perfect little shoots. Gardens are a joy that keep on giving. I love watching all the wildlife in the garden. The buzzing bees and the hover flies that rest in my shoulder whilst I am watering. I feel bad as I brush the aphids off and I can never kill the slugs nor snails, I just move them along!

I have everything I need right now and although we don’t know what the future holds I am grateful to all that I have.

I am trying to work on what makes me happy at the moment and focus on it. I am trying to find the good in everyday things and rather than get angry to work out a solution. It’s not always easy but I feel better, inside and out. Everything seems more positive and full of possibilities.

I hope I remember this when I feel low and not so grateful.

What are you grateful for?