Everyone who has ever started a diet, cleanse or trying to be healthier is always struck by guilt. Guilt of want bad foods. Guilt of eating bad foods. Guilt of the scales for tipping over when we know we have been a bit naughty.
So as you can guess I really really didn’t want to put this picture up! But guess what this is me. Fat going over my running leggings and a belly over hanging. Now before you say I don’t look too bad you need to remember. I have excess fat over my vital organs. This is bad and unhealthy and frankly needs to go.
Being over weight isn’t about looking good or bad it’s actually just bad for you and if I don’t get fit now, then when. Plus I am unhappy so I need to do this!
Guilt is your enemy
It makes you feel like you have failed and so don’t want to try when actually you should just keep going.
Cheat days, treats these are negative words that can make you want to give up when you have been trying so hard.
Working out what your relationship with food is so important! I am emotional eater if I am upset or angry then I crave chocolate. And a little chocolate isn’t bad but I am a compulsive eater who isn’t good with portion control.
Stuck in a rut
The other problem with diets is getting stuck in a rut and convenience. There are no healthy option take always where I live. So you start off well. Putting healthy veg in your fridge. Looking at fat percentage in your mince etc.
But then you start eating the same thing all the time.
I have my go to meals that are no brainers but it’s the snacking that causes issues I love fruit but shouldn’t it be sliced and put in my gin and tonic?
An apple is delicious but it is not, nor will ever be, a bar of chocolate!
So when you fill up your fridge make sure you put things in it that you actually want to eat rather than because someone told you too.
Kale will never be my friend
Chocolate will always be my wayward friend, I will never let go of them completely. We have to much history, too many good times!
But I need to get real and focus.
Running is helping, I am more proactive to eat better after a run or long walk
But I am not giving up
I am not going to make myself feel bad if I eat 4 Bakewell tarts. I am a compulsive eater. I keep telling you this. I would have eaten all 6 but I gave 2 away.
Being negative is never going to help. Being self deprecating doesn’t motivate you to lose weight. Guilt doesn’t make you feel better.
I want to do this
I am going to do this!